Have you ever seen a cropped picture, thinking you knew what you were looking at and then the full picture came into view to reveal something significantly different? Your synapses were already firing, and your right brain had concluded a couple dozen things until you realized you were next door to wrong. I’ve been there …
“Are you waiting on heaven or is heaven waiting on you?” I wrote that line on one our bathroom cabinets several years ago. But after a while I did what most of us do, I moved through my days oblivious to what was right in front of me. I had grown so accustomed to that …
I’ve been pondering some things lately. Just sitting with them and feeling them out. The last few years have taken a lot from me. A lot of energy. A lot of effort. A lot of intention… A lot of things I didn’t want to give. I’ve been pondering what’s even mine to ponder. What is …
For many years of my life, I felt like God’s favorite. I felt like I walked in the favor of God. He was my best friend. We prayed together. We worshipped together. We served together. And I saw so much fruit of our time together manifested in tangible ways in my life. Then a torrent …
I’ve landed on the other side of my voice battle. I still have vocal therapy to do, and I will always have to be intentional about it, but now I know what I’m working with for the long haul. It is both freeing, and if I’m honest, maybe a bit of a letdown. Especially at …
I’m waiting in the silence once again. My last surgery was very difficult and long. My doctor doesn’t want me to talk until I see her again, a week post operation. It feels like a reoccurring case of DeJa’Vu. Writing on the board. Trying not to forget. I accidentally talked in the hospital the morning …
The last two months of my life have been way busier than normal. The activity has kept me distracted, but my busyness hits its apex tomorrow. Tomorrow morning I’m scheduled for a Thyroplasty revision. During one of my preop appointments yesterday, my mind started reeling with: “I can’t do this.” It all felt like it …
So, the consensus after consulting three different doctors is that the implant that was surgically placed next to my vocal cord moved; and probably within hours, if not minutes, of the surgery. So, it must be revised. The minute all the decision making was over, anxiety started creeping up my neck like a bad case …
We’ve just traveled out of state for a second opinion on my voice. I now have more choices to make. I thought I would have long since been on the other side of these decisions, but here I am preparing myself for yet another surgery. I’ve been on a rollercoaster of emotion and thought over …
I’m a slow processer. Always have been. So, I’m not great at anything that needs a quick reaction, but once I finally get something, it normally sticks. I’ve been processing some things lately that have needed a significant amount of time. They seem simple on the surface, but I’m finding that they affect everything. One …